Es mi cumpleanos.

Itssss mah birfday!
I just almost wrote barfday :P


I have now taken in 17 years of life. So far it's been GRAND!!!! okay not grand but decent :)
So yes. Happy birthday to me. That is all. Feel free to send presents!

AND THANK YOU TO MY NEW FOLLOWEEEEERRRRRRR!!!!!!! :) :)
What a great present!

What the hell is this? The Ghetto?

Dear Mom and Mr. Pat,

We do not live in the Ghetto. We do have a little bit of money. I know this because you just gave me allowance. I will gladly give up my allowance forever if you will just call the freakin exterminator! PLEASE! I'm begging you on my blog hands and knees. Call the bug guy!!!

Sincerely and with much love,

Heather

Those were the good ol' days

Remember when I only had one follower, the lovely Odna?
*sigh*
I thought I was going to have NO followers but now *sniff sniff, tear* I have six (counting myself lol).
You like me! You really like me!!!

YOU GUYS ROCK!

Ewwwwww!....Yeahhhhhh!!!

1st) Ewwwwwwwww my house smells nasty! Ugh. This means i have to clean something. I must employ my super nosy nose to sniff out the snappy scent and save the super day. Let me describe the scent for you all, i'm sure you'll love it.
It smells like a mixture of:
Old eggs,
Milk,
Clean dishes (yes, in my house clean dishes smell really weird to me)
Wet dog,
Dry dog,
Fish,
aaaaannnndddd perfume. Because I sprayed it UP because it's really nasty.
So now I'm sure I should probably cleaaaannnn :(

2nd) I PASSED EXAMS!!!! YEAH YEAH!!!!! well...almost of them. hehehe
I got a B+ on Spanish
and a B on Environmental Silence
but I totally bombed my math final. but that's okay because I ALWAYS fail my math tests so my parents didn't mind.

Yayyy!!! I have prospects!!! I might pass junior year!!! I am SO relieved. I really didn't think I was going to pass and ironically, this is the first year i've bothered to study.

Procrastination in the Thief of Time!

What happens when somebody has been isolated in the jungle or something for 1000 billions years and they never hear about Jesus, Allah, God, What eva!!! and then they kick the bucket...what happens?!?!?!
It's like it's their fault that nobody could tell them about God. Does that mean they don't get a chance to try and get to Heaven? That doesn't seem fair to me.
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On the brighter side, I finished exams earlier than I thought I would! Yeahhhh!!!!! All done for another 5 months. Huzzah! Huzzah.
On a less brighter side, the funeral was sooooo sad. I wasn't like bff's with the teacher who died but I have spoken with her a few times and she knew who I was an stuff. So I thought I would go a pay my respects but I didn't realize how much of an impact it would have on me. Yesterday was the first funeral i've been to for somebody that I knew. The worst part of funerals (non religious) is when they play Taps, Bagpipes or do the 21 gun salute it just like BAM! That person is gone. It feels to me like that is THE END.
and we were sitting in the balcony of my school and I was thinking "I didn't know her that well, this won't be that hard." So it got all quiet and out of nowhere I heard the sound that bagpipes make when the air first starts going through them. And I lost it. I was like "WAHH WAHHHHH WAHH WAHHHH" like a wee little baby. Oh my gladiator! It was sooooo bad. My teacher was sitting next to me and her ex-husband and he kept handing us tissues we were sobbing our eyes out. Oi! Oi! Oi! It was horrible. But i'd been feeling a lot of mixed emotions and getting everything out made me feel a lot better...
Yeah.....
The. End.
:)

I cut my middle finger.

It's true. I was clicking my seatbelt and somehow I scratched it and I was bleeding all over the place.
Not really. Just a teeny bitty itty bit. It hurt though.
But it was only a prelude to a crappy week
:(

My english teacher died on Friday and we found out yesterday. So the whole school is bummed out. They've been playing Bruce Springsteen because he was her favorite musician and she went to over 150 of his concerts. She was one of the best teachers in the school and now it SUCKS. They're having her memorial service in the auditorium because to have it in a funeral home wouldn't have left enough room. She was soooo loved!
Ugh.
and to make it worse, FINALS START TOMORROW!!!!!!

AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!
JODERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!

*tear* so it's stressful and i'll be back on Saturday or so.

Guidos

Jersey Shore is the weirdest show ever. And Guidos and Guidettes are CRAZY!

I've decided to live more Islamically...we'll see how long that lasts.
But i'm going to try. :)

Soooo...yeah...

I've been looking up Hadiths lately and...I LOVE THEM SO MUCH!
Oh my Gracious!
--Allah the Almighty has said: “O son of Adam, so long as you call upon Me and ask of Me, I shall forgive you for what you have done, and I shall not mind. O son of Adam, were your sins to reach the clouds of the sky and were you then to ask forgiveness of Me, I would forgive you. O son of Adam, were you to come to Me with sins nearly as great as the earth and were you then to face Me, ascribing no partner to Me, I would bring you forgiveness nearly as great as its.”--

Wow. Whenever I had to read the Bible and occasionally the Torah, I never got into it. Ever. I was reading some today during my hour off (okay it was science but that's the same thing right?) and I was so moved! I'd never felt this way about a piece of literature. I can't even explain it, though I think all you lovely ladies know what i'm talking about.
Oof! This is sooo hard.

Whoopie!

Another follower!!! Thank you Thank you!
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I just feel so darn loveeeed!!!
:)
Also, in case you're blind, the comment thing works now! So comment and I can finally comment back to you! Yeah Yeah!

OH MY GRACIOUS I THINK I FIX THE COMMENT BOX!!!!!

Maybe....
I consulted the HELP! section and I hope and hope and hope that it works.

Golden Girlzzz

Best. Show. Ever.
EVER.

Ever seen it? Amazing.
4 sexually active women over the age of 50 is amazing by itself but to put it in a hilarious tv show...Genius!

Sooooo funny. Sooooo priceless. Sooooo good!

That's how my life will be when I'm old and useless :) and I want it that way!

*My comment thing still isn't working.*

B**** Be all up in my grill! *warning angry post that is not very pleasant*

Ugh drama llama bang bang!
I have said before I HATE stupid shallow selfish girls. Unfortunately my 'best friend' has turned out to be one. Crap!
I have, well...everyone thinks i have two bestfriends and that's like it. (they don't know that i'm actually a social butterfly just waiting to spread my wings) and my little pal decided it would be cool to just ignore me for some random reason...? Yeah...
And give me nasty looks
and talk about me to my other supposed pal and then BOTH of them are ignoring me and giving me the evil eye.
And really, I don't need anymore evil eye in my life!!!
I have the opinion that if you're going to declare that it's National Hate Heather day, you should probably give a public announcement so that the Heathers of the world can be prepared but apparently it was a private party! And the worst part is that this is not the first time, this happens all the time.
I'm fairly sure they're angry because I haven't been chillaxing with them as much but you know what?!?!!? I'M NOT GOING TO WASTE MY TIME WITH A BUNCH OF RUDE SELF CENTERED PRICKS!!!!!
I do actually, believe it or not, have more friends than just them. *le sigh*
I'm just so pissed! I don't even know what I did! If i've done something wrong, i'd like to know what it was so that I can fix it.
I don't need that kind of negativity in my life, it's bad enough on it's own! lol

I'm not really mad that they're ignoring me, i'm actually kind of relieved because i'm not a big fan of some divalicious B****! and her little croney talking about me behind my back. What i'm mad about is the two of them having blatant ignorance, selfishness and a down right rude attitude towards me. Treating me like that after I supported them for years isn't a good way to keep a relationship going strong. I thought that I had two really good friends but it turns out that apparently all I had was a lie. I don't need that, I don't want that and I don't have to have that. So, i'm just going to take a deep breathe let all the bad ju ju out and get on with my life.
If someone is going to pour some random shit on me, then i'm going to move so it doesn't hit me. Nuff said yo! We Are Ova missy missy miss! I have several other much more reliable and just plain better ladies that have been there for me for the past 4 years and i've been blowing them off to hang out with some poop head who walks all over me like a treadmill.



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On an entirely a so much more pleasant note: My friend Katee and I went on a little excursion to the big national park thing by my house. She brought a camera and we just had a good time. It took us two hours to even find the fricken entrance but it was well worth it.

Just today when I got home after school there was a letter and picture of me that Katee had taken while we were at the park. She wrote this really REALLY beautiful letter and I cried when I read it!!! and I never cry! She is just a sweetheart and I love her to teeny tiny bits and it really just made me realized what i've been missing for those two idiots. It just brightened my whole day. I can't even describe it. It was just wonderful. Somebody upstairs really knew I was having it tough and i'm so glad I have her and I'm really regretting deserting her and everyone else for the past months.
New Year's Resolution:
Clean out my shitty friends closet and fill it with the good ones that have been waiting in the rafters of Luuuurve
:)




And on another happy happy note!

Who ever is in controlled of my comment box SUCKS! It won't let me answer comments, i don't know what's going on. So...
Alabastermuslim, this is the comment that i've been trying to leave for hours but it's not working.
"I have been in Wisconsin for 16 (soon to be 17) looooong years and I think I have only seen one muslim woman. Maybe it was you!! lol
Thank you for the support, I really really appreciate it.
:)"

*She is also my new follower!!!! YAYYYYYY!!!!

Thank you for tolerating this horrible little dealio.

Oh my Allah!

Last night my parents were talking about how the only thing i'd get for my birthday would probably be my passport and gas money. I didn't even want anything big, a lovely hug would be nice.
So, stupid me, i decided to joke around
 My mom was saying how since they got me the car, they were going to go easy on buying stuff for me for the next 1000 years. So moi, being the bright intelligent person I am, told her this:
"Oh it's okay, i'm going to be a Jehovah's Witness so you guys won't even have to worry." I was joking, totally joking, I was laughing as I said this and everything. My mother whirled around and gave me the worst look ever given to a daughter in the history of looks. It was SO BAD! So then I had to quickly yell Just Kidding! Kidding! before she brought me to our pastor for an exorcism.
Oy!
So now i've been scared stiff of even talking to her about how i'm done being a Christian and want to convert to Islam. I'm fairly sure if I did, she would kick me out. I love my mother so much and I have a lot of trust in her and she in me but we never talk about faith. I think she knows I'm moving away from her faith and trying to find mine and she does not like it one bit.
I spoke with my Dad about it and he said she was always stubborn about doing things her way (it's true) we switched Churches probably 10-12 times when I was growing up because she didn't like this sermon, or this idea.

So yeah. I want to accept Islam sooooooo badly but I can't. I can't go against my mother. I know that if I told her this, it would probably break her heart so I'm going to wait until I leave for college and a year and a half and hopefully Allah will be as patient with me as he has been so far.
Also, I have no one to teach me about Islam because the local Mosque is like Members Only because there was a LOT of unneccesary outpouring of anger after 9/11. So it's tricky.

Please, pray for me. It's so hard feeling this rift growing between my mother and me because of where I'm going. I don't want to lose her but I don't want to lose my place with Allah.

Sorry for this downer post but it's been on my mind for weeks.

Winter break is done. I havent studied for exams and testing starts next week. Im in trouble.